five things i am grateful for today 10/16/08

1. keva juice =)

2. being able to get fresh clean and cold water out of my sink whenever i want.

3. ruth for taking my shift

4. finally being able to walk with hardly any limp at all

5. sleeping until ONE!

five on friday

Here are five random thoughts or events from this week.

• I am inporting a new Michael Buble CD onto my computer and it is being very loud… and it has been messing up a little lately, like not turning on for 3 whole days.
• My dad signed a year lease on a new house in Manitou Springs which I LOVE. And that means he is staying instate for at least another year.
• He is engaged. Which is fine, they’re good for eachother. But I hope they don’t think they’re going to have kids. Three kids for him is enough, and can be enough for her, too. Granted, his oldest son is a year or so older than his fiance…
• I have a very swollen tonsil which makes eating, drinking, breathing, talking, swallowing, etc. very uncomfortable.
• I have lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks.

cleaning…

It’s midnight, and I should really be sleeping… BUT I’ve been taking pain pills, and I drank root beer at work so I’m up for a while. So I’ve been watching a show on MTV called Man and Wife, and it’s really quality programming (psych.) so I decided to clean my room. For that reason and the fact that I lost my camera. I have a sneaking suspision that it got stolen by one of the mongrals that come in and out of my house at all hours of the day and night, but it could very well be in my huge mess of a room. I have been in the process of purging everything out, but I don’t get full days off anymore and the few times I do, I’m sleeping all day!!

So, Man and Wife, I bid you goodbye for the night, and I am going to clean for an hour. An hour is my goal, and if I go more, that will be super good. Yes, it will take me more than an hour. Probably more like 3. Or more. It’s a mess because I took everything out of every drawer and my closet to go through. Yes, the smart thing would have been to do one at a time, but I went on a rampage. It’s rather embarassing in hindsight, BUT it made me feel SOOOO much better to just throw everything on the floor! haha.

I’m off. Goodnight. God Bless.

I’m sorry that I’m not the least bit sorry.

Lately, I have been doing a lot of thinking. Pondering, reflecting, deciding. It’s been a stressful sort of month and when I should be resting and/or sleeping, I am thinking. Tossing and turning, and, yes, a little bit of crying. Because sometimes you just have to move on.

I’m sorry:
I’m sorry that I’m determined. Determined to make a future for myself, whether or not you’re included.
I’m sorry that I’m sure of the future that I want. A future that will change other people’s life for the better.
I’m sorry that I don’t feel the need (or have the time) to go out every night and forget about it in the morning.

“I’m also going to take a moment to apologize that my blog isn’t interesting and that i don’t get inebriated every night in order to have ’swt brgs’ about how i have unidentifiable markings on my body, or hazy memories of the night before. or any stories about boys i’ve met at sketch bars/dance parties. for the most part i’m a low-key girl and it’s totally enjoyable. i listen to music, discover new things, and adventure in a state of mind that i know good or bad i will fully remember and cherish memories formed.”  -Carinaavila

I’m sorry if you don’t want to date me because you know you won’t “get any.”
I’m sorry if you’re sorely mistaken in thinking that if you swoon me, I’ll give in.
I’m sorry if I don’t find you attractive while you’re slurring your words and stumbling all over the place when you ask me out.
I’m sorry if I don’t try hard enough to make myself look attractive, and that I would rather spend my time in boxers and a t-shirt than a skirt and skanky top.
I’m sorry that I spend my hard-earned money on myself, on others, and on good causes, rather than the chemical habits you have chosen over yourself and your family.
I’m sorry that I don’t need you, because you have proven too many times that you don’t need me.

I’m sorry that I’m content enough to not be sorry for any of this.

IM ALIVE!

WOW.

No, I didn’t die, or fall off of this flat earth.
I have just been super busy and a lot has been going on, but I figured I would give you a short version of the update!

1. I am now assistant manager at work, so I made a dollar an hour raise – which is nice – if only they hadnt cut my hours down to 15 a week. I don’t even get $100 a week anymore. RIDICULOUS. BUT!! In a month or so (fingers crossed) I will be quitting to get a job as a CNA.

2. I am more than half done with my CNA class, and am loving it. The teachers are a bit scatter-brained, so I am kindof teaching myself. I am excited to get out there and get working, though. LOTS of studying coming up!!

3. I am excited to get done with this class and antsy about taking other classes! I really want to moce up to denver, so I am making that my tentative goal for the new year. I want to go to Emily Griffith opportunity school and live up there for a year to get my LPN.

4. I dyed my hair. Its still brown, though. Just dark. Nothing huge, but its a difference.

That’s really about it. So i guess not a whole lot has been new, just a lot of the same things.
I am still busy, though.

OH! and last night I ran through the Target sprinklers with my step brother, my friend and her little brother.
It was amazing.

Okay.

So to COMPLETELY contradict the mature, helping the world type of person I came across in my last post (5 minutes ago)

I  have made a discovery that made me laugh like the immature child I really can be. Maybe not a child… it’s at least Jr. high material. Okay, okay, you be the judge.

Cooters? Really? Because hooters wasn’t enough?!

Oh Lord. I laugh every time I think about it.
*sigh*

Inspired Impact

Please check out my new project: Inspired Impact.

I’m really excited about it. It’s a support organization for charities…

The first few sales will go to start the funding of Inspired Impact, soon there will be different charities that the money will go to!!

Help it get started? Buy just one thing, then spread the word, then come back and buy some more!!

update.

I know I haven’t updated anything in a while. Life has been crazy and I just haven’t had time to do anything but sleep in my “free” time. So I’ll give you a few of the bigger things that have been happening.

1. I go a bunch of bloodwork done to test for a whole bunch of things. I also got an MRI that took FOR.EV.ER. to check for any huge abscess of puss that may or may not be hanging out in my left humerus. (did that happen to make anyone think of this:

“FORRRR EVVVVVV ERRRRRRRRR…….”)
I now look like a junkie, also, because one of the problems they were testing for was the cause of my excessive bleeding and bruising. Needles+skin+easy bruising= Junkie chic.

2. I have been working my tail off trying to get enough money to build up my savings, pay my mom back, and have a little extra to, oh, I dunno, live? It’s not an easy task at a 7.02 minimum wage and only 30 hours a week. (30 hours is a good week, by the way.)

3. I am getting this phone:

which was expensive, but I reallly think will help me stay organized in the long run. Especially soon when I will have 2 jobs and a very demanding class. And there’s a plus: how cute is that phone?!?!

So thats about it. Oh, and my brother is in love with a girl.

*pause for reaction.*

13

Happy Friday the 13th!! I had an extra long day today but don’t really feel like writing about it, so I won’t. Instead, I leave you with a few facts about the “unlucky” number 13.

13 (thirteen)

• 13 is the largest number whose factorial is less than 10¹⁰. This means 13 is often the largest factorial a pocket calculator can represent without scientific notation.
• Thirteen is the atomic number of aluminum.
• There were thirteen participants at the Last Supper. Tradition states that Judas Iscariot, the disciple who betrayed Jesus, was the 13th to sit at the table.
• Thirteen was once associated with the Epiphany by Christians, as it is said the child Jesus received the Magi on his thirteenth day of life.
• In Judaism, 13 signifies the age at which a boy matures and becomes a Bar Mitzvah
• The number of principles of Jewish faith according to Maimonides
• According to the Torah, God has 13 Attributes of Mercy
• In Mesoamerican Divination, 13 is the number of important cycles of fortune/misfortune.
• Thirteen is regarded as an unlucky number.
• Fear of the number 13 is termed triskaidekaphobia.
• The thirteenth of a month is likewise ominous, particularly when it falls on a Friday in some English-speaking cultures, Sweden, Russia, Belgium and Germany (see Friday the 13th) or a Tuesday in the Greek and Spanish-speaking world.
• Thirteen may be considered a “bad” or “unlucky” number simply because when a group of 13 objects or people is divided into two, three, four or six equal groups, there is always one leftover, or “unlucky”, object or person.
• The human menstrual period occurs in a typical woman every 28 days, and this in many ancient cultures suggested a connection between thirteen and women. The association of thirteen with bad luck may be a vilification of the “female” number.
• According to another interpretation, the number 13 is unlucky because it is the number of full moons in a contemporary year, but two full moons in a single calendar month (mistakenly referred to as a blue moon in a magazine article of the 1940s) only happens about every 5 years.
• Early nursery rhymes stated there were thirteen months in a year because of the natural moon cycle that was used to count the lunar year. In England, a calendar of thirteen months of 28 days each, plus one extra day, known as “a year and a day” was still in use up to Tudor times.
• Another hypothesis about the origin of Friday the 13th as an unlucky day is attributed to this being the day that the Knights Templar were slaughtered in a collaboration between King Philip IV of France and Pope Clement V finishing with the burning at the stake of Jacques De Molay.
• 13 is the 6th prime number. 6 is sometimes considered an unlucky number due to its association with 666.
• In Scotland, there is no gate 13 in any airport, instead there is a gate 12B
• Some airplanes skip a row 13, going straight from 12 to 14
• Some tall buildings have resorted to skipping the “thirteenth floor“, either by numbering it “14″ or as “12a
• Some streets do not contain a house number 13.
• In some forms of motor sport, for example Formula One, there is no number 13 car.
• In many cultures, getting married on any day of the week that falls under number 13 is highly discouraged.
• There is a superstition that should thirteen sit at a table to dine, one will die in the next year. This prompted the formation of The Thirteen Club to debunk it.
• The Code of Hammurabi, a collection of laws created ca. 1760 BC, does not contain a thirteenth law.
• Microsoft plans to skip Office 13 for being “an unlucky number,” going directly from Office 12 to Office 14. [1]
• The creators of the online game Kingdom of Loathing avoid the number 13 in all of their programming.
• The Apollo 13 spacecraft malfunctioned after being launched on April 11th at 13:13 CST, forcing it to return to Earth without a landing on the moon and imperiling its crew.[2]
• After 13 years of being the richest man in the world, Microsoft Corporation chairman Bill Gates lost this title, according to Forbes magazine‘s 2008 list of the world’s billionaires.[3]
• On the first two albums by the Avant-Garde metal band Fantômas, Track 13 has no title, is unlisted on the album cover and consists of a few seconds of silence.

Today was not the end…

Today (6/12) was supposed to be the end of the world. Or the beginning of the end, anyhow. It was supposed to be the beginning of the nuclear war that would end the world.

Well, looks like you were wrong AGAIN, Yisrayl (Buffalo Bill) Hawkins.
Who is Mr. Hawkins? He is the founder of the House of Yahweh, a religion founded on the teachings of both Christianity and Judaism. I saw a story on it on 20/20 or dateline or something. My impression? It’s a cult. Now I know a lot of people say that about Christianity as well, and they are entitled to their opinion. But this guy tells his male followers to make a marriage holy by taking their bride(s) to a trashy hotel, “putting their prayer shawls around them, and f*cking them.” This was admitted by a former cult religious member. This guy claims that the Bible specifically says that HE is the next Messiah, calls him by name (Buffalo Bill) and tells him to change his name to Yisrayl. He also says that his followers should change their names to hawkins to prove that they are true followers of Yahweh.
He has predicted that the world would end before, and now that it hasn’t YET AGAIN, all of those silly people who quit their jobs to go live on his farm in Texas, who filled trailer after trailer with food and supplies for the nuclear war, (all of which they bought at OUTRAGEOUS prices from a business that Hawkins himself owns) are going to be sunk. But hey, they’ve come this far, why back out now? If they quit now they will surely be destined for hell, right?

Oi.

If you want to see more on this, there are some links below…
I’d like to hear what you think… maybe I’m being too harsh? But on the other hand, I have read and heard a LOT harsher judgment on the House of Yahweh.

The Greatest Teacher In The World,
The Seventh Malak, The Last Days’ Witness
–YISRAYL HAWKINS–
Taking the Message of the Kingdom
to ALL Nations Before The End Comes!

-Taken Directly From The Website www.yahweh.com

Nuclear Baby
The End