five things i am grateful for today 10/16/08

1. keva juice =)

2. being able to get fresh clean and cold water out of my sink whenever i want.

3. ruth for taking my shift

4. finally being able to walk with hardly any limp at all

5. sleeping until ONE!

five on friday

Here are five random thoughts or events from this week.

• I am inporting a new Michael Buble CD onto my computer and it is being very loud… and it has been messing up a little lately, like not turning on for 3 whole days.
• My dad signed a year lease on a new house in Manitou Springs which I LOVE. And that means he is staying instate for at least another year.
• He is engaged. Which is fine, they’re good for eachother. But I hope they don’t think they’re going to have kids. Three kids for him is enough, and can be enough for her, too. Granted, his oldest son is a year or so older than his fiance…
• I have a very swollen tonsil which makes eating, drinking, breathing, talking, swallowing, etc. very uncomfortable.
• I have lost 8 lbs in 2 weeks.

cleaning…

It’s midnight, and I should really be sleeping… BUT I’ve been taking pain pills, and I drank root beer at work so I’m up for a while. So I’ve been watching a show on MTV called Man and Wife, and it’s really quality programming (psych.) so I decided to clean my room. For that reason and the fact that I lost my camera. I have a sneaking suspision that it got stolen by one of the mongrals that come in and out of my house at all hours of the day and night, but it could very well be in my huge mess of a room. I have been in the process of purging everything out, but I don’t get full days off anymore and the few times I do, I’m sleeping all day!!

So, Man and Wife, I bid you goodbye for the night, and I am going to clean for an hour. An hour is my goal, and if I go more, that will be super good. Yes, it will take me more than an hour. Probably more like 3. Or more. It’s a mess because I took everything out of every drawer and my closet to go through. Yes, the smart thing would have been to do one at a time, but I went on a rampage. It’s rather embarassing in hindsight, BUT it made me feel SOOOO much better to just throw everything on the floor! haha.

I’m off. Goodnight. God Bless.

I’m sorry that I’m not the least bit sorry.

Lately, I have been doing a lot of thinking. Pondering, reflecting, deciding. It’s been a stressful sort of month and when I should be resting and/or sleeping, I am thinking. Tossing and turning, and, yes, a little bit of crying. Because sometimes you just have to move on.

I’m sorry:
I’m sorry that I’m determined. Determined to make a future for myself, whether or not you’re included.
I’m sorry that I’m sure of the future that I want. A future that will change other people’s life for the better.
I’m sorry that I don’t feel the need (or have the time) to go out every night and forget about it in the morning.

“I’m also going to take a moment to apologize that my blog isn’t interesting and that i don’t get inebriated every night in order to have ’swt brgs’ about how i have unidentifiable markings on my body, or hazy memories of the night before. or any stories about boys i’ve met at sketch bars/dance parties. for the most part i’m a low-key girl and it’s totally enjoyable. i listen to music, discover new things, and adventure in a state of mind that i know good or bad i will fully remember and cherish memories formed.”  -Carinaavila

I’m sorry if you don’t want to date me because you know you won’t “get any.”
I’m sorry if you’re sorely mistaken in thinking that if you swoon me, I’ll give in.
I’m sorry if I don’t find you attractive while you’re slurring your words and stumbling all over the place when you ask me out.
I’m sorry if I don’t try hard enough to make myself look attractive, and that I would rather spend my time in boxers and a t-shirt than a skirt and skanky top.
I’m sorry that I spend my hard-earned money on myself, on others, and on good causes, rather than the chemical habits you have chosen over yourself and your family.
I’m sorry that I don’t need you, because you have proven too many times that you don’t need me.

I’m sorry that I’m content enough to not be sorry for any of this.

IM ALIVE!

WOW.

No, I didn’t die, or fall off of this flat earth.
I have just been super busy and a lot has been going on, but I figured I would give you a short version of the update!

1. I am now assistant manager at work, so I made a dollar an hour raise – which is nice – if only they hadnt cut my hours down to 15 a week. I don’t even get $100 a week anymore. RIDICULOUS. BUT!! In a month or so (fingers crossed) I will be quitting to get a job as a CNA.

2. I am more than half done with my CNA class, and am loving it. The teachers are a bit scatter-brained, so I am kindof teaching myself. I am excited to get out there and get working, though. LOTS of studying coming up!!

3. I am excited to get done with this class and antsy about taking other classes! I really want to moce up to denver, so I am making that my tentative goal for the new year. I want to go to Emily Griffith opportunity school and live up there for a year to get my LPN.

4. I dyed my hair. Its still brown, though. Just dark. Nothing huge, but its a difference.

That’s really about it. So i guess not a whole lot has been new, just a lot of the same things.
I am still busy, though.

OH! and last night I ran through the Target sprinklers with my step brother, my friend and her little brother.
It was amazing.

Okay.

So to COMPLETELY contradict the mature, helping the world type of person I came across in my last post (5 minutes ago)

I  have made a discovery that made me laugh like the immature child I really can be. Maybe not a child… it’s at least Jr. high material. Okay, okay, you be the judge.

Cooters? Really? Because hooters wasn’t enough?!

Oh Lord. I laugh every time I think about it.
*sigh*

Inspired Impact

Please check out my new project: Inspired Impact.

I’m really excited about it. It’s a support organization for charities…

The first few sales will go to start the funding of Inspired Impact, soon there will be different charities that the money will go to!!

Help it get started? Buy just one thing, then spread the word, then come back and buy some more!!